| People are Power but what color |
[Jul. 11th, 2008|08:52 pm] |
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Guy stated on CNN about Obama in an interviewd.... " I ain't no southren boy but I can't see no black man making any change...heck only black guy I know to make change had a cup in his hand"
I know this stuff still exist but it hurts so much to hear but I;m glad I did hear so I don't get a big head about people in the US. |
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| Summer is pretty hot like a HEAT FLASH |
[May. 14th, 2008|09:01 pm] |
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Man this summer has been going great. For those that haven’t kept up with me there a few things that have happened in my life. First, after a week of looking and pulling strings I was able to get an internship at the law office of PhillpsMatthis. It took a lot of work prepping for the job, I had to hit the local Marshals, T.J. Maxx, and Ross looking for some new dress pants and skirt to attempt to impress the dude. The tough thing is as a guy once you past a 40 waist life becomes a pant shopping hell. I ran from store to store looking for some nice pants that were A. reasonable priced and B. looked good and my options were like 3 pairs of pants after trying 73 pants only 23 that fit. Out of the 23 honestly only 1 of them looked nice, but that one nice pair of pants help get me the job. The guidelines for the internship were meant for students at the local Law School but in my interview I explained why I wanted it. I told him that most people go looking for these opportuies when they start thinking about their future in the job market. I told him I wasn’t one of those people I wanted the position because I felt it help me to understand if these feeling for law school and my career was the track I wanted to go on. That I didn’t want to wait like everybody else to go find these job that I wanted to stand outside of the fishpond and be somebody. That my resume was going to be ready for a career before anyone else even gets the paper ready to write on. I mean it wasn’t as pretty as I wrote here but he felt the passion in my meaning and he hired me. I been there since Monday and I been loving it. My first turnabout as an intern was to abstract some paperwork dealing with a murder case. I was like “DAMN…right into the fire.” It felt like Anakin after falling into the lava but unlike him… I thrived. It been problay the funnest week I ever had job wise. The work is hard and tough but I feel so rewarded after it. I even told my boss he didn’t need to pay me because he was doing me a favor just for letting me have the experience, but he a real cool dude and is giving me the normal rate of 10 an hour for interns. Its such a great job….just me in my office, my boss coming in and out, and the two assitence talking to me about the islands….and oxtail.
Part 2 of the greateness I have another job working with Planet Real Estate. Creating both a program and software suite for his company. So far from what we dicuss is that I will be both paid in hourly fee for the weekend spent developing it but also a competion bonus of $4000…which all of it is going into paying my taxes, my car repairs, my insurance, and my fees from school…so really like $23 to pay for parking to go to the beach with my sweetie.
Part 3…..My god it feels so good to be back with Elizabeth. I forgot how wonderful it feels to be a couple sometimes but we have really been doing some fun things. We had a picnic in which we got $5 footlongs –makes a hand distance- and went down to the local fruit market and made a homemade fruit salad. It was so goooooooooooood…..strawberries, apple slices, melon, grapes, and pineapple…….so good. But ya the best part was renting a paddle boat and going across the lake. Those boats are so rigged because my ass couldn’t even fit properly, I had like one leg in the water trying to pedal. Couple days later I took her and Niko to the beach and we all had a great time. It was fun and the water was crystal clear. Saw Ironman with her…and attended the opening of Speed Racer in costume………ha-ha. Last Saturday we had our third prom together but it was by far the best only to be followed that night with a relaxing time at the beach star gazing. The final thing is we will be attending Ave Q this Saturday third row sits. |
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| Dun N D |
[Apr. 4th, 2008|02:00 pm] |
I Am A: Lawful Good Human Cleric (3rd Level)
Ability Scores:
Strength-19
Dexterity-18
Constitution-17
Intelligence-17
Wisdom-16
Charisma-16
Alignment:
Lawful Good A lawful good character acts as a good person is expected or required to act. He combines a commitment to oppose evil with the discipline to fight relentlessly. He tells the truth, keeps his word, helps those in need, and speaks out against injustice. A lawful good character hates to see the guilty go unpunished. Lawful good is the best alignment you can be because it combines honor and compassion. However, lawful good can be a dangerous alignment because it restricts freedom and criminalizes self-interest.
Race:
Humans are the most adaptable of the common races. Short generations and a penchant for migration and conquest have made them physically diverse as well. Humans are often unorthodox in their dress, sporting unusual hairstyles, fanciful clothes, tattoos, and the like.
Class:
Clerics act as intermediaries between the earthly and the divine (or infernal) worlds. A good cleric helps those in need, while an evil cleric seeks to spread his patron's vision of evil across the world. All clerics can heal wounds and bring people back from the brink of death, and powerful clerics can even raise the dead. Likewise, all clerics have authority over undead creatures, and they can turn away or even destroy these creatures. Clerics are trained in the use of simple weapons, and can use all forms of armor and shields without penalty, since armor does not interfere with the casting of divine spells. In addition to his normal complement of spells, every cleric chooses to focus on two of his deity's domains. These domains grants the cleric special powers, and give him access to spells that he might otherwise never learn. A cleric's Wisdom score should be high, since this determines the maximum spell level that he can cast.
Find out What Kind of Dungeons and Dragons Character Would You Be?, courtesy of Easydamus (e-mail)
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| D Gundam |
[Mar. 24th, 2008|09:53 pm] |
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The year 0079 of the Universal Century...
Over a half century has passed since Don-Kind had moved its burgeoning room population into orbiting dorm colony.
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This was the beginning of a war
-sounds Gundam music-
D GUNDAM : The 100 Room War |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 3rd, 2008|07:32 pm] |
ATATAATATATATATATATAATATTATATATATA
ATATAATATATATATATATAATATTATATATATA
ATATAATATATATATATATAATATTATATATATA
ATATAATATATATATATATAATATTATATATATA
ATATAATATATATATATATAATATTATATATATA
HOKUTO SHIN KEN
( Thousand cracks of the North Star)
Your already a fan!!!!
-explodes- |
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| Just another day... |
[Feb. 14th, 2008|09:41 pm] |
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| |  complacent | ] |
| [ | Listening to: |
| | The sounds of the oceans | ] |
Today is always clockwork. I leave a place upset only to return to my room furious as ever...seriously every year my rage at these day best me more excited for the next. The drama, yes the ever so juicy drama....how it never fails me. HAHAAHA... back to the same routine of this highschool bs...over and over again....do we ever grow out of it? My guess.....life one hell of a show and I'm not making enough to be the antagonist . It seem no matter the problem or issue its always my fault for the damn problem. YES!!! Let me hear the words of angst as I conduct the sweet melody of malevolent...How alive I feel to have all of my feelings ignored time after time, it truly does put a smile on my face.
Happy Valentine |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 1st, 2008|10:56 pm] |
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I think Today was the first and hopefully the last time I leave my club...feeling upset and disrespected. I like how relax I can be with my members and usually they act so well to police themselves. But today was the first time I seen such selfish behavior from my members it it honestly hurt a lot. I guess maybe Im just being a crybaby but when you have a game on for two hours and the same two people are playing the same thing and you like to join in...you think you could be able to........sadly no its a lie. I must'n be good enough cause that what happened to me today...people tried to argue that they didn't get to play enough or the song weren't my type of songs. THAT SHIT PISSES ME OFF.....who do you think you are to tell me what I can and can't sing. Fuck that shit..Rock Band is a game to be enjoyed and by saying I can't do it makes me so furious. Then getting the same people to give you all the excuses and hog the game all to themselves is just wrong and I hope its not foreshadowing to how karaoke will be saturday. Were people don't know how to take turns and just f'in shares......GAH.......Im just so mad right now........I know I will coool off but thats the only time I seen that shit in the club and the disrespect I got from telling them to pick it up it was closing time really just fuckin ruined my night.........if people don't learn how to act...so help me |
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| I get knocked down but I get up again |
[Jan. 25th, 2008|02:30 pm] |
Man, the good one day. I remember when I was a little kid I used to love playing with legos. I used to build to my heart content and enjoy being able to finish my dream. But to every dream lies some creeping nightmare that no one else can understand. I had this bad happen of trying to get pieces or parts to go a certain way, even if I knew it was the wrong way it was the way I wanted to do it. That attitude has haunted my very childhood when something would be to hard and I just couldn’t get it done, I would throw a temper problem and walk away.
I did it to everything that would give me a challenge I couldn’t overcome. Now days it seems that God has slapped me with another ironic twist to life. I love trying to overcome challenges that seem almost impossible. No matter how many times I try I love the feeling of getting rejected only to get back up and knocked off the horse again. It’s a weird feel…….it excites me like adenine. Knowing that there problems out there that I can’t wave my hand over and fix.
To think all of this came from me picking up a copy of No More Heroes really warms my soul. When games are fun because they will throw pothole to get in your way while still be as fun as it can be. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 10th, 2007|08:05 am] |
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I love putting puzzles together but I always hating finishing them off because it makes me think you have to be perfect to be complete. Or just because there always that one person that screws the puzzle up by ctrl-z everything you tried to do. Or your cat eats a puzzle piece...then its called One Piece. |
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| Life is a bag of Candy better get used to Butterscotch |
[Nov. 7th, 2007|08:24 pm] |
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MUWHAHAHAHAHA……….it feels good to feel young again.
Those whisper of all my misdeeds yet to be done. It was a trip down my childhood. Oh… how I miss the evil I wished I could be the devourer of worlds the slayers of puppies. Sadly I have gotten old in pathetic in my age.
This thing they call realism has infected me and consume my sensible desires and replaced them with senile grandeurs. I grown bored of some of the things that really used to excite me anime, cons there all for the young. I know there must be something wrong with me because the same people tat used to get the old wheels turning in the head have now started to stop turning. They grind and they twist but nothing moves them like the used to. What does this mean I asked myself? I don’t know or maybe I don’t want to be honest with my self. I’m maturing. It’s a horrible feeling…yet I don’t think I can ever out grow my love for America cartoons. Their stupidity and comic mischief still enchant me to this day; it’s something that most anime feels to translate. Yet cartoons are cartoon but I feel some shows just make it to serious. The same dramas I used to love I reread and I realize how utter nonsensical they are. Those love stories you grow up with are lies, just like the cake, which you’re never get to have and eat too. Life is a choice a and a consequence you can’t read and watch away. It’s sad sometimes how I look to some of the people I know and they live in this nonrealistic view of life. I know I’m easy going but hell I’m realist. You might never get that from the “purple scissor bagel slicing” I might babble on about there are times where you have to be serious.
That’s the problem I have , there will be moments in your life where you have to cut out the shit going and pull yourself together and get your life together. You can blame and blame but the only one effecting the outcome is you. If you really wanted the job you would have tried harder. If you really wanted the boy you would have done more. Heck if you really wanted to do something with your life you would have taken a step earlier and tried. All that should’ve and would’ve don’t mean shit if you don’t. Be a dreamer……but be a dreamer that make your dreams come true,
In short………….stop nagging and go out and do something. |
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| Oh its that time |
[Oct. 25th, 2007|01:07 pm] |
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Its that time when I just.......
MUWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
No one will understand, thats...
The best part of insider trading |
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| Can't Work Up the Strength |
[Oct. 10th, 2007|08:21 pm] |
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Every time I want to come here to cry my heart out I forget how to spell the words I want to use... |
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| Heroes |
[Apr. 19th, 2007|05:37 pm] |
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Have you ever felt so touched by someone you never knew that it brought you to tears? I was today... I was finally able to read the full story of the people killed at VT, but only one even flinch me. His name was Liviu Librescu he was Professor of Engineering Science. He threw himself in front of the door and told his student escape, as Cho Seung-Hui attempted to enter his classroom. While holding him back Librescu was then to death. Thanks to his sacrifice all the students lived, because his dead body ended barring the door close. Its one thing to read that kind of heroism in comics or watch it in anime but…when that happens in real life it brought tears to my eye that people like that still lived. This goes out to him…thanks for showing humanity what it takes to be above and beyond |
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| O vereasy |
[Mar. 26th, 2007|12:53 pm] |
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| | pessimistic | ] |
Man...for those who didn't know I'm just recently getting over "Mono"....it has to be by far the worst illness I have ever had..cause feeling like crap for a couple of weeks ain't fun. The worst part is the lack of energy you have until about an extra2-4 weeks later having it. So working out for me in class...not fun at all. Running track for my conditioning class had to be the worst feel when 2 out of shape people...lapped me walking. Oh lord...please give me the strength to keep going...cause I feel like laying here in my bed for another 3 weeks. |
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| ...Arise from the grave |
[Mar. 25th, 2007|11:37 pm] |
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-digs out of the ground-
....-cough cough- Well it feels good to be back
You know when you were a kid and you used to pray to god that life gets easier when you get to college, Ya its no joke...and the farther you go the better I say. Life has gotten better all of a sudden...stress is almost a thing of the past with me now a days, I'm so calm and the piece of mind is wonderful. You have time to focus on the important things of life ...like making up all the days you lost because of your horrible parents. I know some people aren't able to just jump straight into college or techincal school. Its cool everybody has different...events that affect our lives. I am barely maintaining the funds to keep me in because college is not cheap but thank god my school is one of the cheapest and highest ranked in the nation. Though I'm not here to brag. NOT LIVING WITH YOUR PARNETS is heaven...
Escape when you get the chance...living on your own is hard but my god is it fair. |
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| The future of Me |
[Jun. 7th, 2006|07:48 pm] |
My future computer and love
>o> Intel Celeron D processor 346 operating at 3.06GHz
=) 256KB L2 cache
=O 533MHz frontside bus
^^ 512MB of PC2-3200 DDR2 SDRAM, upgradeable to 2GB
>=) 100GB 7200-rpm Utra DMA hard drive
-_- DVD-ROM/CD-RW combo drive (16x/48x32x48x max. speeds)
=P 10/100Base-T Ethernet interface
XD 56K V.92 modem
X_x 6 USB 2.0 ports (2 front, 4 back)
=D 2 FireWire (IEEE 1394) ports (1 front, 1 back)
<.< 1 parallel port
O_o 2 PS/2 ports
^____^ Integrated ATI Radeon Xpress 200 graphics
^_^P Integrated 7.1-channel configurable audio, with microphone and line-in jacks on front and back, headphone jack in front, and digital audio output |
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| I put the V in lo...e |
[Jun. 3rd, 2006|11:54 pm] |
Every Hero needs a catch phrase...Its the New Dawn of a hero..........
" Time to Don my Gear"
And lovible I jsut got screwed phrase..."Oh Snap!!!"
and a victory shout " This V it means Victory!"
Power on Vriendship!!!
T^T because we all need a hero sometimes and I'm ready to save yo... |
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| Where does a hero go for help ? |
[Jun. 3rd, 2006|11:29 pm] |
I felt it was time for change on my LJ to reflect my inner conflict.
When I was young I dreamt of being a hero that no matter what happened would give it everything he felt was right for the sense of justice. Justice in the sense of being blind not to race and gender but to reward.
For a hero does good not for the benefits or the rewards because a hero knows it was the right thing to do.
It’s something I always wanted to do but I’m no perfect hero …in fact I’m the antihero.
“An anti-hero can be awkward, antisocial, alienated, cruel, obnoxious, passive, pitiful, obtuse, or just ordinary. When the anti-hero is a central character in a work of fiction the work will frequently deal with the effect their flawed character has on them and those they meet along the narrative. Additionally, the work may depict how their character alters over time, either leading to punishment, un-heroic success, or redemption.”
What I do I feel isn’t because it’s the right thing is the right thing but redemption I feel I have to achieve for the things I’ve done in my life…..for the friends …family….even myself I forsaken for my own greedy ambitions.
I lived so much of my life circled around just me I don’t even know any more, how I can be that egotistical to believe that the world just might revolve around me.
Is it angst, guilt, pain that drive me to this conclusion…? No far worse it’s the thought when I look into my mirror I don’t even know who I am anymore. I always saw myself as a good and bad side where my good was in balance of my other half for so long until the pendulum had to swing and well my other half had its fun and now I think its time for a balance.
What good I or bad is redemption for my sake….heh sure its still my ambition but I know there nothing wrong with being greedy as long as you know what’s truly important…friend family and a whole lot of self love…..
Just because I didn’t know who I was in the mirror I still knew I liked the face I saw…..hahahah…
…………….Always a thin line between a hero and a madman and I think its time for a lil of the two. |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 8th, 2006|10:47 pm] |
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| | numb | ] |
..........Mental Retardation
lalalallalalaalalaalaaalalala..........
My brain burns ^^ |
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